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I went in there as a Protestant fundamentalist physics major, Mr. Science Guy. I had had out-of-body experience. I was ego disintegration. I was flying around the universe meeting up with discorporate entities, and this was quite a lot. And I was exploring states of bliss that were unimaginable and unspeakable. They weren't language. And then the door was open and there's 10 people standing there. Of course, Joe is worried, like, oh, is he okay? And so I come out, and Joe starts interviewing me, like, well, what did you do? So I started telling things that had happened, and Paul Gorman would say, oh, that's a meditation experience. And so I mean, I knew the word meditation. I could spell it, but I had no idea what it was. I'd certainly never done it. I'd never wanted to do it, Mr. Science Guy. So I was so high that for three days I walked around and my feet didn't touch the ground. I was still out of body. At the end, Ralph folds his hands and he leans forward, and a little twinkle in his eye, he says, we could do that here. Oh, it was a download. And I had not a job, not a profession, not a career. I had a vocation. And the vocation was to make this available to as many people as possible all around the planet.

Struggles, my goodness. It took me 18 days to get here. I was in utero for 18 extra days. We did not even know that was possible. My mom's water broke on August 22. I was not born until September 8. I started asking questions, because questions empower you. That is when a lucid dream screen dropped down, and I was in heaven with God. I was not happy about coming here. I had no interest in this lifetime. I was tapping out. I was backing away. I thought there had to be someone more qualified. There was a whole heaven full of souls, and I said, not me. He said it had to be me. I tried everything to bargain with him. He said it was my time. He opened his arms and asked me to look inside. I saw all these twinkling lights and asked what they were. He said, 'Those are the souls waiting for you to get to planet Earth so you can support them in their soul's evolution or purpose, which is why you incarnate.' It was already planned that I would be doing this. I did not get that information until an angelic guardian tapped me on the shoulder and said, 'Do the math on that.' That is when I realized the 18 days, and everything opened up. This was bigger than me, beyond me.

It's interesting that my marriage that did not happen actually did change the course of my life. By calling off my wedding, I was able to embark on the life path that was actually meant for me, the one that I had sacrificed. And that's what led me to this journey today. I remember drawing my tarot deck when I was in the middle of my RV road trip right after I called off my wedding. I had nothing to lose at this point in my life. When there's nothing to lose, you have everything to gain. When you've lost your entire identity, you've lost every solid structure in your life, and you're figuring out what's next. There was no fear of taking risks.

That system crash occurred for me in alcoholism. And so my fourth time in treatment, I finally surrendered. That was January 31st, 2022. I turned my will over to God. Was it ever hard following my purpose? Well, to be honest with you, I spent some time in a psychiatric ward not too long ago. Because as it unfolded for me, it was very clear that God was working through me. And now I understand it more. But at the time, He was just flowing through me, and the realization of how the universe works was very overwhelming. I was working at a manic pace because I couldn't stop working. Because as the truth unfolds, all you want to do is play in the truth, because it's the truth. I went to the psychiatric ward and I sat there and endured five days of questions. I showed them my paper, the Shephard Universal Proxy Theory, which is what got me into the psychiatric ward, and the doctors did not really know what to do with it because it is beyond current accepted principles. I was able to change lives in there, to unlock people in there, to show them that they're not crazy. And that's what was important to me, because I knew I wasn't crazy, and to help these other people see that they're not crazy, too.

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I went through about a five year winter soon after my very existential period when I was about 15. It was weird because while I was having all these realizations, there was actually a moment of ego death, of feeling like the world dropped beneath me. I remember sitting on the hill behind my house, and I had just watched Inception. There is a quote about how an idea can take root in your mind. The idea in the movie of what if you are dreaming and then you wake up to a more real reality, and how you never really know. I was sitting there looking at my hometown of DC, and it was almost like the meaning was drained out of everything. I felt gross and scared about everything, like what if nothing means everything and nothing means anything, and I do not know what anything is. But then it led to rebirth, and I started literally doing whatever I felt like doing. I felt like I was seeing the world through new eyes. If I do not know anything, then all there is is this. And that is beautiful. All there is is this moment.

For me, it is not about ego or fame. It is about the impact the art has on people. That is the win, because that is the mission. The financial abundance and other rewards are byproducts. You do not have to strive for them. They naturally occur from showing up and serving the community, from being the purpose. What would the world look like if everybody was living their purpose? I feel the world would be a happier place. Most spiritual lineages and schools of thought aim for love and being loved. When that is experienced, true happiness happens. A lot of misery, strife, and stress exist because people are not living their purpose. If everyone was living their purpose with the tools for abundance and economic stability, there would be less war and political conflict. People would get along and be more accepting of one another.

In 2021, I was stuck in London, pretty unhappy. I was doing interesting purpose consulting work and interesting projects, but something did not feel right. Over the space of about five weeks, my whole life blew up. My dad went into the hospital with a heart attack. One of my best friends died. I broke up with my partner. My sister had a baby, with complications, and we had to help look after him. My grandparents sold their house because my grandfather had recently passed away, a house I was meant to be living in. I lost my job. Every week, something happened that normally only happens once in a lifetime. I got to the end of those weeks and felt like I could not take any more. I was holding on by a thread, mentally. During that time, I had been building a van because I had come back and gotten stuck in lockdown and did not want to do the whole mortgage thing. When the van was ready, I realized I could not stay. There was nothing for me in England anymore. I love my family, but I had to find my path. I took the van and headed out. I drove to Portugal, and the minute I got there, my whole body felt calm. It was like, okay, this is where I am meant to be.

A breakdown, breakthrough moment for me was, I mean, I've got sober a hundred years ago it feels like. So when I lost my mother, I didn't pick up alcohol. I picked up junk food, or what I now know is junk food. I felt lethargic and shattered. But it was when I discovered this molecule, this just in the humble coconut, this medium-chain triglyceride that helped me say no to the world's most addictive foods. That for me was a relief and a revelation. And I thought, I've got to get this out to the public. After battling addiction and losing her health, Davinia dove into the science of the body, discovering how food, light, hormones, and a mindset can completely rewire a life.

When I came into astrology, it was such a powerful, life-changing experience for me. Right after that, I found out I was a fourth-generation astrologer. My father remembered to tell me, and he didn't tell me before because I was born and raised in a cult and that information was not revealed to me there. After I left the cult at the age of 27 and came into astrology, my father said, 'Oh yeah, it runs in our lineage.' This was the first time that I felt this conviction with a system before. I never felt that with any other system where I was compelled to use it to help other people. The moment that I had that aha feeling, it wasn't just an aha of being excited and surprised, it was a deep, impactful, sobering punch in the gut, literally, because it was that sense of responsibility with why I was here. So when I realized that through my chart, I was in shock and I said, 'No, anything but that.' I cried. I said, anything else but that.

In 2021, I was stuck in London, pretty unhappy. I was doing interesting purpose consulting work and interesting projects, but something did not feel right. Over the space of about five weeks, my whole life blew up. My dad went into the hospital with a heart attack. One of my best friends died. I broke up with my partner. My sister had a baby, with complications, and we had to help look after him. My grandparents sold their house because my grandfather had recently passed away, a house I was meant to be living in. I lost my job. Every week, something happened that normally only happens once in a lifetime. I got to the end of those weeks and felt like I could not take any more. I was holding on by a thread, mentally. During that time, I had been building a van because I had come back and gotten stuck in lockdown and did not want to do the whole mortgage thing. When the van was ready, I realized I could not stay. There was nothing for me in England anymore. I love my family, but I had to find my path. I took the van and headed out. I drove to Portugal, and the minute I got there, my whole body felt calm. It was like, okay, this is where I am meant to be.

I did not know what to do, and I was invited to something called the Bhutan Innovation Forum in the country of Bhutan, where I met investors in a company called Yuna. All I heard the entire time I was in Bhutan was Yuna, Yuna, Yuna. And I thought, what is this Yuna thing that everybody is talking about? I came to find out that Yuna is an AI powered mental health coaching app that is very low cost and very scalable, and that they needed someone who fit my description, a treatment innovator, not just an academic scientist, psychologist, or therapist, but someone who has innovated in the treatment space. And I thought, I am perfect for this. It felt like fate, but it was really scary because this is uncharted territory.

Up until my late 30s, early 40s, it was still, to a large part, about me becoming this famous writer. That was a hard road, very hard road, because I was the wrong class. I didn't have the resources to be able to do that. And one day, I had a download, and it's too long to go into now, but out of that download came the understanding that it really wasn't about me. It was about remembering something that I knew and had forgotten, and I had to find that. I had to go and research and read and do as much discovery as I could. And then, a few years later, I realized that I had remembered. I remembered what was important and what I was here to do, and that is to share, to find knowledge, to help other people remember who they are. In 1987, which was the year of the harmonic convergence, and I didn't know that until much later, something happened at some point and I realized that all of this looking that I was doing for something out there, it went away, that feeling. And it was, I know what I need to know, which is that we are so much more than we think we are.

I had a complicated childhood, with a mother's absence and a father's absence. All of that created the human being I am today. I had many conflicts with my maternal side. She assaulted me many times, to the point of wishing me to somehow depart from this earthly plane. What that did was create a profound shift within me, opening myself to unconditional love free from judgment. Throughout the years, in the past, I've reincarnated and died many times trying to deliver messages. Now it's my turn at this precise moment, and the soul simply did it so many times that it did it automatically. I started with a cleanse. I wasn't born eating just lettuce. I used to go dancing, worked at night, smoked. I'd smoke a pack of cigarettes a day, drank wine, was foul mouthed. Then the soul said, okay, that's it. You've experienced this. You've lived it. Now your purification has arrived. And I simply stopped tolerating gluten. I quit smoking. I quit drinking. I quit so many things.

For me, a big moment, a watershed moment, was in 2018 in May, when I had been studying alchemy and I kept seeing alpha and omega. I was in California and I kept seeing alpha omega. I was drawing sacred geometry. It was showing up in my consciousness everywhere. Right before I left, I remember I was at my in laws house and a big Benu bird, which is a giant white egret, landed right in front of me. This bird was standing there looking at me. I knew that something special was going to happen as I was leaving to go to Israel the next day. The entire time I was in Israel, and I was going to finish the trip in Egypt, I kept drawing alpha omega. On the last night I was in Israel, in Jerusalem, I went to this cave called Zedekiah's Cave. I jumped the rope and went deep into the cave. I looked down at the floor where I was standing, and it said alpha omega in the floor. The next day, I flew with twelve of my friends to Egypt. That night, we went into the Great Pyramid and the King's Chamber. One of my friends was lying in the sarcophagus. While I was standing on top of the sarcophagus, I had a memory flashback of being there when the pyramid was being dedicated. Right where I remembered seeing it, all of a sudden I was in the room with five people. We were all dressed differently. We were in a totally different timeline. I looked down exactly where the alpha omega was. The next thing I knew, the moment I looked down at it, I was back in that timeline. Exactly where I looked, there was an alpha omega on the rim that no one had ever seen before. That is when I knew my life was dramatically different from that moment forward. About a week later is when I discovered the prime number pattern and published it.

I discovered my purpose, to help others heal through trauma, to grow and expand. It was a traumatic road. It was an interesting road. It was an expansive road. Through this road, I learned myself, connected to myself, and grew and flourished in ways only the divine could have brought forth. Through this journey to self, I experienced the most traumatic thing I could have possibly experienced, the loss of my only child. I was thrown into depths of grief beyond what a mother's heart could imagine. It was in that grief that I found myself. I found love. I found healing. It was the best experience I could have possibly asked for. I am so grateful that my son chose me to be his mom, to teach me and guide me. Kevin, my son's name, taught me what love is. Love is not linear. Love is energy. Love is heart. Love is compassion. Love is giving. That is healing. That is growth. I had no clue that the most traumatic event in my life could be the most rewarding and so expansive.

And on this particular day, my eighth season or seventh season playing, I made a tackle I had made so many times in my life from high school, college, pros, and I ended up on my back, and in this particular place I lost all movement. Through that, I was diagnosed with a spinal contusion, and my whole life that I invested into this character was gone, and all I had known myself to be, all I had known myself to do, was be the sports person. That character was gone. And now I had to look in the mirror and say, 'Well, who am I now, or who do I want to be?' And I was in that predicament. Luckily for me, or ironically for me, I found yoga, which is union. I found myself.

A friend of mine was deciding to become a life coach, and she said, 'I need some students to help me.' And each week we would meet, and she would tell me these interesting things. Then one day she turns around and she says, 'You know what I just discovered about you?' I said, 'What?' She said, 'You don't believe in yourself.' I said, 'What are you talking about? Of course I believe in myself. I wouldn't have come this far if I did. No, no, no.' No, no. You don't really believe in yourself. You faked it all along. I said, 'How can you say that?' And she kept repeating back to me some words that I said to her. And in listening to them, I was like, 'I said that?' And she said, 'Yes, you did.' I said, 'Seriously?' I said, 'Wow, I don't believe in myself, honey. I don't believe in myself.' And she said, 'I could have told you that.' That was the performer in me, right? I was always on stage in some way or another, needing to always impress somebody that I knew what I was doing. The way I transitioned from being a full-time actor to being a full-time psychic therapist, medium, and spiritual teacher is it came at that aha moment when I started believing in myself. All of a sudden, things started opening up for me. There were circumstances that led me directly into this occurring full-time. So it was presented before me as soon as I said, okay, I'm going to start believing in myself.

That system crash occurred for me in alcoholism. And so my fourth time in treatment, I finally surrendered. That was January 31st, 2022. I turned my will over to God. Was it ever hard following my purpose? Well, to be honest with you, I spent some time in a psychiatric ward not too long ago. Because as it unfolded for me, it was very clear that God was working through me. And now I understand it more. But at the time, He was just flowing through me, and the realization of how the universe works was very overwhelming. I was working at a manic pace because I couldn't stop working. Because as the truth unfolds, all you want to do is play in the truth, because it's the truth. I went to the psychiatric ward and I sat there and endured five days of questions. I showed them my paper, the Shephard Universal Proxy Theory, which is what got me into the psychiatric ward, and the doctors did not really know what to do with it because it is beyond current accepted principles. I was able to change lives in there, to unlock people in there, to show them that they're not crazy. And that's what was important to me, because I knew I wasn't crazy, and to help these other people see that they're not crazy, too.

What happened was I went through a quite horrific divorce and was brought to court, and I had a quite mean female judge. And when it was brought to light that I had quit my career, which I did, to be a stay at home mother, she said quite clearly to me, 'Who do you think you are?' To mother your children when the rest of us are all working? She said, well, that was a mistake, and she hit the gavel. She took away all of my alimony and most of my child support, even though it was against the law, she did it. And I came home, and I had enough money to live two weeks, and I had two small children, and I just broke down. I said, 'God, I am 40. I am smart. I have always been on my feet. How could this happen? What will I do?' I had a choice. It was a definitive choice. And I was told I had a choice. There was a fork in the road, and you cannot wait. You cannot wait a week. You cannot wait to eat. You are going to have to make this decision right now that is going to determine your whole life.

I had a series of inner experiences that at the time I thought were pathological. I was in the psychobiology department, so hearing voices, seeing visions, leaving my body, this was not something that I trained myself to do. I really thought I was going crazy. To make a long story short, it culminated in a death. I left my body numerous times. I was killed by three men. Two men held me down and one plunged a knife into my heart. The pain was very excruciating, emotionally and physically. I died. When I woke up, I could see that I was surrounded by this field of love beyond anything I could describe and such beauty. This life, this beauty, was even in the lint in the rug. Everything was alive, glowing with this presence. At that point, I couldn't get back into the normalization that I'd been doing as a young child. I woke up and I could see 360 degrees, 365 degrees. I could see everywhere. I went on a research to discover what had happened to me, and that's when I bumped into the mystical teachings of Gautama the Buddha, Jesus the Christ, Walter Russell, Zoroaster, and many teachers that led me into an awareness of what was happening to me. I realized I wasn't crazy.

"I was eight months in a wheelchair with my leg elevated. I then had six corrective operations over an eight year period. The whole time I was on opiates, which sent me completely psychotic. Then I was sent to a psychiatrist who decided to give me other drugs, including Prozac, which completely fried my brain, and I was in a completely alternative reality to everybody, my wife, my family, my friends, completely out there in a hell which I had created for myself. Suicidal at that point, I burnt everything. I got rid of all my possessions. I didn't want any trace in the place. I burned all my photography. I burned all the music. I was a music producer. I burnt all my music and got rid of everything. I didn't commit suicide because I'm still sitting here talking to you. Then a little spark within myself lit up, and then some crazy magic and synchronicities appeared on my journey, which led me to find a holistic healer who actually became a godsend for me because he became my guide and helped me wean myself off all the drugs and medication."

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"It wasn't until 2014, when my life fell apart. I got divorced, I quit my job, that year I moved from New York City, where I had been for many years, and basically, it changed my entire life. For me, it was a sequence. It was a series of moments. The first moment was in 2012. I had a dream, a literal dream. I was sleeping and woke up with the name She is the Universe in my head. I didn't know what to do with this. This was so strange for me, but I trusted it. I bought a domain name. I took action in the way that I knew how."

It was in 1996, on January 1st. I left Congo because of insecurity. There was too much war there. In 2012, we decided to leave Congo, which was our country, and left everything there, house, everything. We went to Uganda as refugees, me together with my family. In Uganda, we were staying in Nakivale refugee settlement. In Uganda, it was terrible because when you leave everything in your country, everything, then you go to start a new life in a new area where you know nobody there. They could not give us anything. They could only give us a piece of land. And apart from a piece of land, the government of Uganda could give us a plastic sheet, and we have to construct a house with poles and plastic sheets by ourselves, and that was very difficult. You could find people go hungry. You had everything in your country. Just because of insecurity, you find yourself homeless. You have nothing at all. That part was very difficult, and it took us some time to regain hope.

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My purpose is to spread love, to teach people how to choose love as a thoughtful response in every situation, circumstance, and interaction. I came to my purpose through the murder of my six year old son, Jesse McCord Lewis. He was murdered at Sandy Hook Elementary School in his first grade classroom alongside 19 of his classmates and six educators, in what is still the worst mass shooting in US history in an elementary school. I came home from that day and found a message that Jesse had written on our kitchen chalkboard that he left for us. It was three words, nurturing, healing, love, written phonetically. He was just learning how to write in first grade. The message was incredibly clear to me that that was the solution to what had happened to him, and that if we could focus on love, that we could overcome the darkness. So I took that message and started spreading it in schools, homes, and communities around the country, around the US and the world.

When I found a piano at a friend's house at a play date at five years old, or it found me, I instantly could play harmony and melody without even knowing how. The mother came upon me as she was picking me up and didn't know what to make of it all. I remember that it was literally like coming up from under the water after holding your breath for five years. Suddenly the world as I knew it was like the moment in The Wizard of Oz when everything is black and white, you have the tornado, and she comes out of the broken-down house and opens up to the land of Oz with this beautiful color. For me, it was this moment of something that reflected a presence of innate knowing that life was about truth, beauty, and goodness. There was something in me that knew that life, like Rudolf Steiner says, is essentially about truth, beauty, and goodness.

"I didn't quite know, but I know I had an inspiration that came over me in 1976 when I was sitting in my little silver Honda car. I thought, I think I'd like to be in glitter, no, in art and business, I'd like to meld those two because I was a financial rep at the time, but really my entire background was art. I'd been drawing, making things in all different medias since I was a little kid. In 1976, that's a long time ago, I had a friend who said, Barb, why don't you help me design this booth? That was just one thing, and then she got me a job with a graphic design studio in Detroit. It was just one thing happening and pulling me toward it."

It took a year to have the light body completely reintegrate with the physical body, to the point where he was now able to be, I would say, functionally communicative. So yeah, it took that long, and during that year-long process, what was also happening was that there were all kinds of skill sets that I did not even know I had, or I had forgotten that I had, that came rushing back to the surface. Telepathy was one of those. I was also learning how to use multidimensional healing techniques that were innate to me, but I did not know they were innate until this little four year old boy put the key in and turned it. When he turned that key and opened me up, there was no doubt in my mind that this was my purpose. I had the idea that I was going down one particular pathway, and I thought I was going to be a really wonderful speech language pathologist for the rest of my life. Then it was like taking a hard right and saying, no, this is what you are going to be doing instead.

Deep within every individual lies an intrinsic understanding of their life’s path, purpose, and true essence. Some have already accessed this well of wisdom, seeking only affirmation of what they intuitively know. Others are still navigating the uncertainties of life, yearning for guidance and clarity. It is often during moments of upheaval or transition that we find ourselves questioning which direction to take. Do you question your path?

"I was at a point in my life very desperate. I really had no place to live, finally found and rented an apartment, had to work many hours, 11 hours every day, and was exhausted. There was almost no meaning for me in life. I was so tired, and then I had to part with my beloved boyfriend. I remember the day so well. I was in the subway and just couldn't hold my tears, even in public. When I got out of the subway, I remember meeting this lady. She had a sign, tarot reading, I can read your palm. I was so desperate. I said, what's the big deal, I'm going to stop by, I really need help. I started talking to her. She looked at my palm, and what she told me, I could not believe. It transformed me into a completely new person. She told me my life was going to change dramatically, and what I had to suffer right now was nonsense. Don't worry. This transformation helped me enormously, because this was the pivoting point for me. I went home and felt so light, so great, that I really believed everything she said. Partly because she was able to tell me my past with such a degree of accuracy, it was mindblowing."

"When I was in the Silicon Valley world, on a private jet and in a private ski area, especially the private ski area where Bill Gates and others belong, gated and off the charts luxury, I was there with my wife Stephanie. The cognitive dissonance was extreme. Incredible luxury, but what am I doing here with everything going on in the world? That was the experience, cognitive dissonance. I was not doing what I am doing now. It was a strong tap on the shoulder that there was another vision to serve and another journey to take. Cognitive dissonance comes in as a tap on the shoulder. Some say it turns into being hit by a two by four if you don't follow it. I believe that's true. I always followed the tap, so I never got hit by the two by four."