Life-Changing Event

When I was 13, I fell ill, and after two years of exploring and investigation, there was no real advancement in my status. I was told that that was just it. I started to accept that, with help from others, to accept that this was my state of being. The more I accepted that, a change happened. I had totally no energy and no clarity, and the more I accepted that, a little bit of energy would come that I could do something. If I then said, 'Oh, later, if that energy becomes more,' it would come. But if I stayed with what there was, I could enjoy that moment. Step by step, I learned that it was about being in the now, accepting what it is, how I'm doing. If I could be with that, there would be enough energy from my heart. If I started to go into the mind or wish for something that was not there, it would drop away. It was a lesson of stepping forward, falling down, and getting up again. After some time, ten years, I could say, 'Okay, I get it. I understand.'