Be Yourself

The hardest thing in living my purpose is that people around me sometimes don't understand, especially my family when I was younger. To them, it would look like I had no clue what I was doing because I literally wasn't making any money and didn't really follow my career until I was 36. That was 10 years ago. I'm 47 now. They were just pulling their hair out thinking, when are you going to think about retirement? When are you going to start putting money away? You can't just hop from one thing to another, and you can't just wait tables all your life or babysit for $5 or, you know, whatever, be a mom. I always had a really strong feeling inside myself that I was on my path. But to translate that to the people that love you and are close to you is a little harder. Now they're all proud of me, of course, but that was hard. It was hard for them. I think their worry created stress for me, let's put it that way. It can be somewhat lonely because my path, I've never had an employer basically other than source. So I should say that one of the first things I came across when I started to spiritually awaken was the Mariam Williamson quote that said our biggest fear is not to be small. Our biggest fear is to be great beyond measure type thing. And I wrote that thing down and hung it over my bed. I made a big huge painting and it's been with me for the last 20 years.