Deal With Your Doubts

"I've had many, many moments of doubt. A friend of mine, who's a mentor of mine, a very wise lady, told me recently that founders generally live in eighty percent doubt for the whole of their life, and I very much resonate with that. You're the beginning of something, and it's usually something that's emerging in the world constantly. It's often changeable and changing, and it changes you, and that's been my journey. I've had a huge amount of doubt, self doubt, about is this for real, am I for real, am I being authentic, especially at times when I've been less than what I would consider in integrity. I've learned the fastest in those times of deep self doubt. In the Gene Keys teachings, every shadow contains a gift, so for me that doubt is actually a deep part of one of my keys. That doubt leads to inquiry. The gift of doubt is inquiry. It takes you on a journey of looking deeper, unless you're avoiding it, which many people are. They try to avoid it because they don't want to go there. But if you look into the doubt, there's magic there, because it takes you on this inner journey of inquiring, who am I, what is this doubt. It's little aspects of my old self that have not fallen away yet. There's an illusion to it as well, and my experience is that there's actually an end to it. It's a finite thing. These shadows, these states like doubt, are actually finite. When you enter into that heightened state, there's no doubt there. There's only cellular certainty of who you are and what you are. Doubt is a process of alchemy, where the doubt eventually gives way to truth, and truth is what is. That's the great secret for me about doubt. Doubt conceals truth, but it's a journey into the doubt, so you have to face it. You have to face all your own doubts, and then truth gradually starts to populate the cells of your body. More and more cells are resonating with truth, and less and less cells are filled with doubt. I think that's the same for everyone, but you have to have the courage to go on that journey of self enquiry to find out, what is this, who am I."