Inner Child & Subconscious Work

I did my own little darkness retreat in my room, where I completely blacked out everything. It was pitch black, and I stayed in there for three days and reflected on the chaotic evil summer that I had. I sensed that I needed to forgive myself on a deep level, forgive my inner child, in order to feel like I could move on and apologize. I am so grateful to be feeling like I am on the path to doing things that feel like purpose. The scariest feeling for me is that I have been so blessed in life. It has not felt like I have had a lot of pain and struggle put upon me. I have been given so many gifts. In a way, there has been a feeling of guilt, like what am I doing with these gifts, especially when I am in a low energy period.