Surrender

This approach resulted in me getting my first tattoo, which says surrender in Bengali, to your truth and intuition. That became the philosophy I would move through. What unfolded was finding community, connecting with people, and a lot of deep listening. Looking back now over the last 18 months, it has been a hibernation of my inner world. It was about listening, attuning, sensing subtleties, noticing what lit me up and what did not. The biggest struggle I have had in living my purpose is the moments when I feel completely lost, when it is still unfolding. You do not have a clear line of what you are doing or what you are about, and you are just watching everything unfold. Listening and creating that space also meant letting go of many things, which was uncomfortable and painful. It is during this transition, when things are falling away but nothing has come in yet, that you are in a vast space of not knowing. I read a quote a long time ago that says, when everything is unknown, everything is possible. Sometimes you need to clear the garden for a new crop to grow and just trust the process. There are really big blocks where it feels like pushing water uphill, like why is this so hard? Maybe it's hard because it's not in flow, and it's okay to let go, release control, and try to surrender into it as hard as it can be.