Heal Yourself

The way I came to this conclusion was that I really struggled in life early on. My childhood was pretty good, but then from 10 till 20 I struggled with eating disorders. I really led a double life and had basically no friends, just isolated myself, and was battling this disease or addiction. I remember when I was 15, I felt like I was 70 and I was ready to die. Part of me wanted to give up, and another part of me really wanted to live and find my soulmate, have kids, and have a normal life. When you have an addiction or an eating disorder, or any kind of addiction, for over 10 years, statistically your prognosis of ever recovering or getting better drops to about 5%. So at 20, my prognosis for living was higher, but for recovering it was at 5%, and for living to be 30 it was also at 5% because I was doing damaging things to my body. I think because I struggled so much with just having normal and then finding a way to healing, everything else became easier. Because of my history, I had to do a lot of healing on my physical body and I did it mostly through food, energy work, and family constellations.