Stillness

It often takes me a while to fall asleep, maybe an hour, two hours, even three hours is not unusual. So I am in this almost dreamlike, day into night dreaming state for that chunk of my day. Although it can be annoying at times when I am really tired and just want to sleep, it is also one of my favorite states to be in. I love daydreaming and letting my mind wander. Even if I am meditating, whether sitting or dancing or whatever, sometimes I am putting more effort and energy into bringing focus and awareness, like the typical idea of meditation. But I am often not really forcing it. I am fairly okay with the mind wandering, with noticing what is happening in my head when I am dancing. I really appreciate that state a lot, both the mind wandering and the feeling of really noticing what I am thinking and what I am feeling.