Inner Child & Subconscious Work

When I was in college, I was commissioned to make paintings for others, and I was not painting the subject matter that I wanted. Because of that experience, I thought that I wasn't a good painter. I didn't think that I was very good at it. Later in life, I realized that the only time I had given myself the opportunity to paint was when somebody else asked me to do it. I heard myself say out loud many times, 'I guess I'm just not a painter,' or 'I'm not very good at this.' And I think a lot of people do this to themselves. People say, 'I'm not an artist,' 'I'm not good at this.' But when we come in as children, everyone's an artist as a child. Everyone's good at what they do as a child. I think maybe around the age of seven, eight, nine, we get into our minds and we start to compare to others and think, 'I'm not good enough,' or maybe a teacher or someone tells you, 'You're not good,' and we start to create stories. I came to a point in life where I decided, okay, enough of this story that I have in my mind. It's not even true. I am a good painter. I also used the power of belief to change this, and I said, 'Okay, if I think I can't do something, I need to say out loud that I can.'