Heal Yourself

"The only thing that would quell that fear, that anxiousness, outside of a very strong will to live, was music. It was not rock and roll music. It was really about sound. There were lots of harmonies and natural sounds that touched my core and really penetrated on a cellular level. It was what I locked into, what I could focus all my attention and energy on, so I could heal from within while the doctors tried to heal externally. I knew it had such a miraculous effect because every day the doctors would come in and say, we cannot believe how much your bone has grown back. We cannot believe that your blood work is coming back with all of this amazing data. I would demand to see my lab work. I would demand to see my X rays. I would say, this is low, let me focus on this. When I was focusing and meditating, it was this music that I focused on. It really created a sound path for me to bathe in and stay in so I could reach a level of ease and distress while all the stress was happening in my body."