Being In Nature

Maybe it started even back when I was first having these existential questions of why I feel like there is something missing or flat and empty about my life, even though I have everything. The way humans evolved was in a totally different environment. So it makes total sense to me that we are having so many of these quote unquote issues, like depression, anxiety, and health things that they call modern diseases. I have been thinking about that for a while, through the lens of feeling a bit repulsed by the modern way of life and doing things because of these elements, but also feeling this attraction to living more like an early human, which feels like it would be more natural. I flew out because you told me about a friend of yours who is building an off grid community a couple hours away. It is something that I have been curious about and feeling drawn to for a while, exploring more primal ways of living. I am just recently feeling ready to actually try it. I spent a little over a weekend there, helping out mainly with the cooking for the crew that is building these beautiful domes and arches in this desert landscape full of juniper trees and beautiful hills. While I am weeding, my mind is wandering. I love thinking and being in a very heady, abstract world, but for me it feels best to have that balanced out by earthiness.